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Sometimes when I cant sleep, I put the Twitter app back on my phone and scroll aimlessly. Im trying to hurt my own feelings, and Im always successful. I want something to hate, I want someone to be wrong, I want someone or something to hurt me. And I always get it, because thats what the internet is for.

Lately, the point at which I get enough of what I wanted that I delete the app again is when I see a tweet telling me Im old. I dont mean it says my name or anything, but that it targets a category of people and makes fun of them for being online at all at 32, 35, 37. I get into a snarly little snit of indignance, and then I get mad at myself for getting mad, and then I delete the app and go to bed, essentially obeying the command in the tweet: Get off of the internet, youre the wrong age to be here.

Millennials are getting old, and everyone is going to have to hear about it. Characteristically and in the only way we know how, we are making it everybodys problem. Until somewhat recently, I felt like I knew where the lines were, and who was on which team. I felt like I knew who was old online, and who was young, who was the butt of the jokes, and who was making them. But in the last few years, those categories have shifted.

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The hierarchy in online social spaces is changing as we reach a series of page breaks: The oldest millennials have already turned 40, and the youngest are staring down 30. Our slang terms are embarrassing, and our memes are outdated; the clothes we wore the first time around in middle school or high school are in retro fashion for teens and young adults who werent alive yet for Y2K.

People have been old online before, and young people online get older online every day. But millennials are, arguably, the first generation to have been young on social media and to then get older there. Those of us in our mid- to late thirties may have been extremely online for more than two decades, going through more stages of a life cycle here than anyone else yet has. Other people have been old on here before, but they werent here when they were young.

When I first got online, the internet felt so much like the future as to be science fiction. Early social media was grimy and chaotic and had nothing to do with family, careers, or any part of polite visible life. It was always 2 am on the internet; it was always a sleepover after somebodys parents had gone to bed. The internet was the opposite of our parents world. It was, by definition, not for old people. Old people, from a preteens perspective, probably meant anyone over 25.

My experience of social media, and that of many people around my age, was predicated on making fun of our parents and people their age, who didnt know what the internet was or how to behave on it. My dad used to tell me about listening to Bob Dylans Mr. Jones with his dad, and how his dad kept asking who Mr. Jones was, because he didnt understand that it was him. The internet was our music that our parents couldnt understand. Sometimes a friends parent would make an AOL account, and all of usfumbling through middle school with our screen names and our chat rooms and our passive-aggressive away messages and our Livejournalswould shriek with laughter about it: an old person, on the internet! It was the best joke in the world.